|
[22 Oct 2005|11:38pm] |
|
my life is fucked.
|
|
|
[22 May 2005|01:12pm] |
hahahah.
hilarity.
|
|
|
[08 Nov 2004|02:46pm] |
im baaaaack.!
god i forgot about this journal. these are pictures of me from when i was 15!!
|
|
|
[10 Jul 2002|05:01pm] |
|
outback makes the best ceasar salads EVER.
|
|
| why do i feel soaked in cinnimon |
[09 Jul 2002|07:42am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 thirsty |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
poison the well.nerdy. |
] |
me and marlene's monopoly game had to come to an end.
i ate too many fritos and other assorted junk foods.
i cant stop thinking about this guy. that i know i cant have.
i stayed at my sisters all weekend.
my birthday. oh. i mean freedomday is 7 days away.
and
i miss you terribly.
|
|
| why would i be |
[05 Jul 2002|04:25pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 rejected |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
travis.turn. |
] |
everyone is at a show that i wasnt invited to. of course i wasnt.
fuck.
just get it over with and kill me
i wish i was important like you
|
|
| no one knows im dead. |
[05 Jul 2002|12:30am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 determined |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
moneen.passing america. |
] |
tonight was a good time
i left before the drinking started *pheew*
i feel tons better. i love my friends.
i need to tell *him* how i feel soon, i keep bottling up my emotions and it isnt good.it will be hard but i must. maybe things will work out in my favor.
desi arnaz is sexy.
i love the beatles.
|
|
| i just realized.. |
[04 Jul 2002|08:52pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 amused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
if i could turn back time.me covering cher. |
] |
that my journal picture sucks.
it makes me look like a guy more than ever.
i need to take new pictures soon.
ill make them look fabulous, because i am.
i am forever afraid of fireworks..because of the little incident a couple days ago where i lit one off in my hand and my thumb has 2nd or 3rd degree burns on it. whoa. it hurts..
|
|
| dreams.they dont help.but.they do stop the hurt. |
[03 Jul 2002|06:49pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
..waiting.. |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
tom jones.its not unusual. |
] |
why did you stop calling me?
sometimes i think i miss you but then i must be mistaken.
so im replaced.again.
feels kinda like dying
please dont keep me waiting anymore
lisa. would you like more tumbleweed?
no thanks..im still finishing my thistles
--------
tastes like...grandma.
oh my god it does taste like grandma!
sometimes all you need is the simpsons.
|
|
| i sense a bit of hipocracy in the air.. |
[02 Jul 2002|05:07am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
content |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
modest mouse. # 2 on everything and his nasty parlor tricks |
] |
check yo self.
whoa. tonight was fabulous. naturally.
i just got home though, im a bit tired and stuffed. me and marlene drank soy milk and i ate cotton candy while everyone made fun of us. aw whaddo they know?
today me and justin held hands and sung our duet "reunited and it feels so good" BUT right in the middle he interupted it asking me for a cigarette. hey no problem i says. something aggravated him..because he hit my hand back and then ignored me the whole evening. whoa. i guess that everyone has the potential for pouting..eh prince justin? i think this marks the third night hes made me cry. whoa. i need to work on my sensitivity problem.. no hard feelings i say. i mean. i should have hard feelings. but.. nah. im kind enough to understand his financial problem and give him gas money whenever he needs it. i want to see him so much because i love him..so its no problem.. and also i support his addiction and give him cigarette money. no problem either bud :) but when my efforts go unnoticed.. and you turn it around .from, a sweet and nice gesture to "buying you", well thats just plan bullshit. hey if you want me to be nice and buy you things cuz i love you, i will. if you want me to be a bitch, oh, i can definitely do that too. i say, its your choice.
i may not have a lot to give but what i got ill give to you
money cant buy me love
i dont want to buy you. you fool.
youll have to exuse me for being so kind. my bad.
next time you will be in your house all day because no one else is stupid enough to give you gas money.eh. whatever ya want. is what ya get.
and dont think you can walk all over me and get angry at me at the littlest things whenever you want. i may not be so forgiving in the future. i may not say im sorry in the future. no more fights is what i say. all you need is love. especially no more fighting OVER GODDAMN CIGARETTES. jeeze o peeze and i am the drama queen here? its like your looking, waiting for me to do something, anything wrong.
ah in important news. tomorrow me and my favorite hippie are going to practice what we do best. it will be jolly good times i am sure of it. let my hair down(if thats possible for me) take my shoes off..play guitar and be in nature all day long.. ahh how i wish i were alive in 1968.
goodnight. uh. i mean, good morning..ah you know.
whenever i need you
all i have to do
is dream.. zzzzz
|
|
|
[01 Jul 2002|01:51pm] |
|
15 days and counting..
|
|
| how could you. |
[01 Jul 2002|10:07am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
numb |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
few and far between.sea and the century. |
] |
youre killin me.
last night i realized im still in love with someone.
i cant tell him. id like to but, what would be the point?
man. unrequieted love is the worse. ah oh well..
also when i came home last night i posted in my journal an apology..to everyone..for the way ive been acting. but 2 minutes after i did, i got criticism. so of course i deleted it. i dont think i can handle this anymore. everything i say i get shot down. im always wrong or someone somewhere will always find something to make fun of me about.so basically im saying fuck you, to everyone who finds the need to hurt me.
|
|
|
[01 Jul 2002|02:01am] |
|
im a fucking idiot.
|
|
|
[30 Jun 2002|08:26pm] |
|
maybe if i wear my glasses tonight you wont be able to see the tears in my eyes
|
|
| and i thought you'd worry about me... haha |
[30 Jun 2002|02:36pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
abandoned... |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
travis.why does it always rain on me?. |
] |
oh, go ahead. take youre precious time doing whatever.
its not your problem. you're not the one getting beat. you're not the one getting yelled at or in trouble. so why hurry? eh no big deal to you, right?
yeah i guess thats how it always is. my feelings are never considered..eh. whadya gonna do?
last night was kinda awkward. i saw craig. it was weird because i think he still hates me. oh well. i think its dumb. just because i dont want a boyfriend is no reason to hate me. i really wanted to be his friend but eh.
i got seriously dissed last night too.
and now im sitting at home for YOUR mistakes.
|
|
|
[28 Jun 2002|04:08pm] |
i love how we're so different yet so close
<3
|
|
| weeeeeee |
[28 Jun 2002|03:44pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 busy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
beatles.here comes the sun. |
] |
today has been nice. i woke up late so i missed breakfast with sssmiralda and marlene. but i did get to go thrifting a little bit. then chuckie cheese with ssmiralda :) we were too big for the ride where you get your picture taken but fun times anyway. im broke and i need money for me and others peoples gas and cigarettes. show tonight. moneen. yay. havent seen them yet. should be amazing. i dont need quizes to tell me im an artist. pah-leaze. hahah
i should get going home so i can take a shower so i dont have h.a.s. syndrome all day.
linzy marlene mirna- we'll walk our dogs tomorrow. ok?
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
since_you's journal
exhausted